If you read my blog even occasionally you will probably notice that I love lists. All kinds of lists! I am a sucker for any list of health stuff that can tell you how to improve yourself or what to avoid. I write lists on foods to speed up your metabolism, foods to help you sleep, foods for energy, you get the picture. Tonight I was going to write a post with a list of ways to get a flat stomach (don't worry, I will never give up the lists-it must be my thing).
But then a sudden urge came over me to just write a ramble.
A day in the life of me, health nut wannabee mom eating really bad. Of course as I sat and ate a package of Mamba taffy and sipped on my Diet Pepsi (I gave them up but today, well I gave in to the temptation) I thought of a million excuses for devouring the iced sugar cookies that my daughters made, the chocolate bar that melted in my mouth like heaven, the mambas which made me dizzy with disgust, and the diet soda that was probably killing me. Perhaps I had PMS (Barry and Paul if you are reading this I know you will understand since you seem to have the PMS problems too-kidding), maybe being inside with the girls all day with all these sweets (I have a sweet tooth) was too tempting, maybe an alien invaded my body and made me do it (this is the most probable I think) or maybe I just wanted a day to be free and slowly kill myself with sugar, artificial sweeteners and more sugar. I really can't say but once it was all said and done I sat feeling miserable, my stomach hurt, my head hurt and I felt like a fraud.
HA! Look at Health Nut Wannabee Mom now- surrounded by cookie crumbs and candy wrappers. After I got over the feeling sorry for myself for giving in, I decided that I am only human and once in awhile I am going to have these days ( I am convinced it was the aliens invading my body) and while not good, it is okay. Truly, I have not eaten like that in probably 2 months. I live on fruits, vegetables, nuts, low fat organic dairy, water, tea and most things healthy.
The great thing is that since changing my diet for the better, I generally don't crave sugary sweets like I used to so today was just well, one of those days that we all have. I guess my point is (if I have one-this really is a ramble)that nobody is perfect regardless of how much we try or learn and it is okay to fall down as long as we get back up. The ironic thing is that after I washed down my last sugar cookie I craved fruit so that is something at least. I promise not to ramble anymore and tomorrow I will be back with my lists!!! I am not sure why I love those lists but they work and tomorrow I will tell you how to get a flat stomach. If you made it this far in my post you have my most heartfelt appreciation for reading this ramble!
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